time to let go!

After a year of friendship,we had 6 weeks whirlwind romance..Then his ex-gf,who seems to have some hold on him, move back to town. Things fell apart, they got back together, now she wont let him talk to any other women. I was dropped like a bad habit . He says its killing him but i know the truth! If it was, Hed something about it. I wont have my dignity trampled for this, so its TIME TO LET GO..... Its been 4 mos now since we broke up and im still surviving..ive been tempted to check him on twitter or FB to see what hes doing now or whos hes doing now.but ive been strong and have avoided it. SOON, ill be able to delete him from my list, form my phone, from my mind, and from everything else! Baby steps for now!!

be positive!

Last year,few months before new New year comes I remember being so sure that this year was the year that everything would turn around… I could sense it. I could feel it in the air. But I guessed I was wrong I still don’t have a life til now because here I’am still doing nothing,stucked,still making the same mistakes over and over…just as screwed up as ever!!! So I mad a plan last night my plan is carefully scrutinize my past in the name of not being condemned to repeat it by writting like an annual report (duh!whatever it is!!) every end of the month so at least I get a clearer picture of what I am doing right or wrong…I’m not that so stupid enough to think it’s going to keep me making mistakes ever again but it would be nice if at least I coild start making new one,make my life worth living,get a life… I’m tired of doing same things everyday. I should think of positive life positive future… Think about something, anything worth doing,use my time very well,make everyday like it’s last. I want to do something now and end the boredomeness haha… well. about my love life that’s the one that is going really positive I’m so happy about it. I still have my him even im giving him lots of troubles sometimes :) I still have someone who loves me and the greatest thing is were still together even we are far away from each other. I’m still blessed :) I’m still positive to be with him even if it’s not so soon :) still positive for our good future <3 Okay so I note to my self just try to be happy always,smile,forget the nonsense problemssssss :)

Reminding myself that he is the one who left me. If he wanted me in his life he would have stayed with me. The fact that he didn't even say goodbye or actually told me about breaking up with me. I had to spend so many days and nights waiting for him to actually tell me whether he will be back, whether i should wait, or its over. That was like a slap on my face about how much i meant to him. No one can change anyone's mind and make them stay no matter what they do. I didnt deserve what he did to me.

those sweet moments in the pasts

It was kind of an off guard situation to tell the truth. We were having good conversation, over the phone – with no faults, and as usual had talked until the wee hours of the morning. We were calling it a night, and just as I went to say the usual “Goodnight”, he blurted out that he “Has love for me.” As he put it. I smiled and simply replied, in what I know he could tell was a cheery tone, that “I love you.” It flowed out easy, because it was true. It was the truth, and there was no denying it.

Unfortunately, despite my love for him being true. His proved to be false, and well, now I’m stuck icing, bandage, and mending a broken heart.............

I have met my boyfriend of 8 months almost a year ago. We started off as friends but with time we developed feelings for each other and finally after denying it to ourselves as well as others around us we both confessed that we liked each other.

What would followed would be 6 hard months as we didnt see each other at all since we were 5000 miles apart. I would cry myself to sleep so many countless nights, it hurt like hell, mentally as well as physically not having him around me.There are some that say that “heartache” only exists as a metaphor but all that have gone through it know it is a real and existing pain.

So we stood the test of time. Our bond and love outgrew both, time as well the distance. Even though we physically were on two different continents, our souls were with each other all the time. I have no doubt at all that I have found my one and true soulmate, the man I want to spend the rest of my life with.

And even now, that we are only ten minutes away from each other and are seeing each other every day, every minute that I cannot be with him my heart is longing for him. I miss him so much that I sometimes wonder whether I am going crazy but I think that is only the prove of real and true love. I have never loved someone so much as I love him, and I know I always will. Even if it means that it might hurt every once in a while…